Day 50: Breaking Through

 

Today is Day 50 of Nutrisystem 2.0 and I'm sad that I haven't made as much progress as I had hoped. To not even be down 15 pounds is a big disappointment and it's also a big red flag. I'm still making excuses left and right to overeat or not exercise and that is a big problem. It is still the weekends that are tripping me up. This is why I feel like I need to formulate and adhere to a routine for weekends. It's too easy to sleep in and then sit on the couch all day, because I have nowhere I need to be. My time is 100% my own and with no place to go it's too easy to be lazy.

Breakfast was .. well, I actually forgot to have breakfast. I did finish the remains of the muffin from last night, which honestly was about 1/3 of the muffin. I'll count that as 150 calories. Morning snack was a 120 calorie chocolate shake. Lunch was roasted carrots and a 220 calorie pepperoni pizza melt. Afternoon snack was 160 calorie cheese & crackers. Dinner was green beans and a 250 calorie chicken enchilada. Evening snack was a 140 calorie chocolate cupcake. Total calories for the day are 1040.

First workout of the day was 33 minutes in the Atlas Mountains, going with my 2.5 to 2.8 settings. After work was a 16 minute workout in Spain and I did the same thing as last night - started at 2.6 and bumped it up 0.1 every 2 minutes, ending the workout at 3.3 mph. That's another 61 minutes in the books ! 

Today was not a productive work day. I logged in this morning to find that any files I created or updated since 2-16 were missing. I received some system updates last night and I'm sure that was the culprit. After trying to resolve on my own I had to call the help desk and they couldn't resolve, so I had to wait for the next level of support. I didn't have to wait long and they were able to find my files and restore them, but my excel worklist that I use every day was not restored. I got the important stuff back and that was the project file for the big issue I was working on yesterday ! I spent most of the day on that issue and towards the end of the day started redoing the updates on my worklist document. I didn't finish that and instead of working late I just let it go and will address it tomorrow. I've learned a lesson and that is to use the tools available to ensure my important files are backed up. I have a Onedrive account at work and I haven't been using it. Well - I'm using it now ! 

The snow storm they warned us about rolled in around noon with a very fine snow you could barely see falling. By 7 pm a light snow was falling and there was a coating on the ground. By 9 pm the ground was covered with maybe an inch and light snow was continuing to fall. Looking at the radar, the heaviest snow of this storm is on a collision course with my area .. so we'll see what happens overnight ! We didn't get the ice or high winds (yet) but I'm keeping my phone and tablet fully charged, just in case ! 

Over the past couple days I've thought a lot about the rut I've been in. I let myself go and I've let the housework go a bit too. Doing the dishes last night was a big start and it felt good to put all those clean dishes away today. The kitchen is presentable again so I'll be moving on to the laundry room tomorrow. The litter boxes need attention and I need to wipe up the sink out there. The pantry is in better shape today. I restocked my coffee and was able to get rid of some cardboard boxes. Just getting the kitchen under control makes the rest of what needs to be done much more manageable. I've always had an issue with feeling overwhelmed at times. When that happens I can't get anything done. I do it to myself - there's no reason to let the dishes pile up. Going forward I will wash plasticware or anything else that doesn't go in the dishwasher as soon as I use it. Most of the dining room table is cleared off but my office is still a disaster. That's going to be my weekend project ! In addition to taking care of the house I'm also working on taking care of me. I'm committed to showering every night again. Instead of leaving the shower for bedtime I'm taking it a little earlier in the evening (before 8) so that I'm not tired and using that as an excuse to skip the shower. I just do skin care and brush my teeth at bedtime and that seems to be working. One thing I really miss is putting on makeup and jewelry and doing my hair to go the casino on Saturday's. I don't miss actually going to the casino because I'm happy to see my savings account balance increase every month. I just miss the social aspect of dressing up and going out. I always knew the day would come that mom would be gone but it just came too soon and too sudden and quite honestly, I wasn't prepared and I wasn't "ready". Are you ever ready to lose a parent ? Nope. We all know that one day it will happen but you can never be ready. My dad was suffering when he passed and mom was too, but being glad they are no longer suffering gives me no comfort. I wish they were both still here. Dad was in the beginning stages of Alzheimer's but mom had all her faculties, so her passing was that much harder. I could blame a little bit of where I am today on the fact that mom's passing left me a bit alone. My siblings are all married and living their lives so I'm the odd man out. A "lost soul" my brother called me. It's a pretty accurate description. I am pretty lost and I don't really know what to do about it.

Nutrisystem had a 55% off deal going so I placed an order tonight. It saves me about $100 over my normal monthly shipment, so I moved my February shipment out to 3-17. I also ordered extra breakfast items since I always run out of breakfast first. I don't mind having the Jimmy Dean sandwiches to fill in here and there but I'm trying to limit them to a couple times a week. 

I haven't weighed myself in a while and at this point I'm going to hold off until March 4. That will be "2 months" since my restart. I will also take progress photos that day. I put a reminder in my calendar to make sure I don't forget. I'll have my new tripod set up and look forward to using that instead of the mirror. I had talked about monthly weigh-ins and I'm going to try that for a couple months. It's just too disappointing to see no loss or one pound, so a monthly check might be more motivating than weekly. I didn't get my vitamins in today, so I am still working on that. I feel like I'm on the right track and I need to work harder to stay on track through the weekends. I don't think I've had a successful weekend since I started.

On that note, it's about time I head for bed. I'm going to stop in the kitchen to take some Metamucil, which really helps my digestion and then it's teeth and skincare ! Despite my work snafu, I had a really good day today.