Day 153: Just Another Day in Hell

 





Today is day 153 of Nutrisystem 2.0 and it was just another day of struggling with the uncertainty surrounding my job. My day started with an email from my siding guy with his final estimate ... which is $3k more with gutters for the front porch and the new cover for the basement access !! I emailed him back to advise that was ridiculous and he can either accept $43k for the entire job or I'll go back to the original $41,780 estimate and forego the gutters and basement access. I can live without gutters and I can build a new basement door myself.


Breakfast was 150 calorie pancakes with sugar free syrup and an 80 calorie yogurt. I didn't have a morning snack. Lunch was a chef salad & 220 calorie pepperoni pizza melt. I didn't have an afternoon snack, per se. I had some cookies. Dinner was green beans & a 250 calorie meatloaf sandwich. Evening snack was a 140 calorie chocolate cupcake.


I didn't get on the treadmill during lunch, mostly because noon snuck up on me AND the air quality was super bad today because of the fires in Canada. The smoke was pushed down here and the sky had an eerie yellow glow all day. When I took my trash out you could smell the smoke in the air. It even set my smoke detectors off in the house briefly ! This happened the other day and I wonder if it was from the smoke too. The smoke is expected to be out of here by Thursday. I ended up taking a shower during my lunch hour and I enjoyed that, since I hadn't showered since Sunday.


Work was uneventful and not very productive, mostly because I'm waiting for bills to generate on a lot of my projects. Most won't be available until late June so there is little I can do with them until then. I haven't taken on any new work this week only because I'm catching up from vacation. I'm also not really motivated to work like a dog anymore. I will go back to my old level of performance (and more!) if I'm able to keep my job. If they tell me move or go .. then I will only do what is required until I go.


Every night I say I will try harder tomorrow .. and hopefully tomorrow will get here soon. I really do want to get back to my exercise program and get this weight off. I'm eating more sweets than I should and I know it's just me comforting myself with food. Why can't I comfort myself with exercise !!!!???? Now that would be awesome !

On that note, I'm heading for bed.

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